Thank you all for the congrats. I’m truly still trying to process this all. Of course, I took 2 more tests and they both turned positive before the line that shows the test was complete was actually there. I’m still super tired and my boobs are sore and peeing just a tad more than usual. Of course the lovely cramping that accompanies the pregnancy also.

I’m thinking my due date would be Nov. 30 but that’s a guess. I have to get this confirmed by the Dr. and I’m sure she’ll order an u/s soon. I’m just so damn worried that the u/s will show nothing, or a dead baby again. How the hell do people go through this time after time? I’m just praying for now and hanging on with all my nauseated moments that this is a good sign. I’m mean I can’t worry myself silly, cause that’s no good for me too. Ugh, just no easy way is there.

Hubby is thrilled about it, but we’ve just come to an agreement that if god forbid, something should happen this time again, we aren’t going to do this again. This is it for us. It’s terribly sad to think this may be it, but hell I never thought we’d get to this point again. I’m really so scared.

On to happier thoughts, Julie has bestowed on me a blogger award which I am truly grateful for being thought of for this. Thank you so much. I truly appreciate it.

Umm, I really have nothing else to write about, just scared. scared and more scared. Take care all.

So I finally tested…………

Ok, so I didn’t test yet. I know, I know, I said I would already but I haven’t.

Still late. I’m thinking that i am, but anyway, I will have to confirm with a test.

I’m still getting nauseated at like 5am in the morning. It was so bad the other night I was gagging. If I’m not preggie, I must have a flu!

I will test tomorrow I think, I have just been so freakin’ busy at work I hadn’t had a chance.

Anyway, must go watch America’s Next Top Model, cause I’m addicted!

Well….

I’m still late.

Nauseated with no desire to eat anyone??? Ugh, the sight of food sickens me. I’m thinking this could be a sign. My pulse is retardedly high, like 140bpm, almost went for an EKG today at work, yah that would have been cute. Now that I analyze this, (cause I’m a chronic analyzer, LOL) I was describing all symptoms of a possible preg to my Dr. I’m SUPERRRRRRRR tired, I thought I’d fall asleep today at work.

But, I don’t have to pee much, no more than usual, my boobs aren’t anymore sore than usual and I’m super cranky and hateful during my pms stage.

Must test tomorrow.

I have to change the look of this blog, I’m sick of it.

I may have spoke too soon…. (TMI)

…. on my last post. What had happened was a slight amount of spotting. Now I’m late.

One day.

I’m not going to test today. I swear to this though, anytime that I’m late, I’m preggie. Maybe it’s my mind playing tricks, maybe wanting it bad enough I could be late. Blah.

Symptom-wise I’m analyzing everything.

Boobs=sore to touch
peeing-enough, but of course it’s more often right before I start too.
cramps=a lot, on both sides of my abdomen, reminds me of why I took a preg test with A.

Well this is one that makes me wonder. I was starting an IV yesterday and the lady was bleeding quite a bit from her old IV site and I was getting weak, I had to sit. Normally that doesn’t gross me out. And one of the Dr.s wanted me to assist with a knee aspiration and the needle was massive he was putting in the knee, I almost barfed. So I am curious there about those things.

If I don’t get a period by Tuesday I’ll test. Then I’ll be really late.

PS. Shannon, rub A535 is a medicated type of cream you can rub on sore joints, it gets EXTREMELY HOT and then goes to a COLD type of feeling. It burns like hell from my experience.

2 posts in one day, I think that’s a record for me .

Just snuggling here with my baby, the way we used to back when she’d sit for longer than 5 minutes in my lap. No need to test now, my period showed up, just on time, a day early and everything.

So I saw Grey’s last night, not sure what I am thinking of it at this point. It’s just not as good as it was. I miss the way it was.

I watch America’s Next Top Model last night too, I love that show. Hubby thinks it’s horrible but I’m totally addicted to it and must see who gets kicked off from week to week. I think this Renee one is a little nutty. Her pics are nice but she’s just a little too competitive, well that’s what is portrayed of her anyway.

I had a few days off from work, and I so don’t want to go back there on Monday. It’s nice to actually enjoy a day off with the kids, without walking around in zombie mode. Speaking of work, must post something that had happened when I was working at the nursing home. Naturally, most of the residents have some kind of dementia/confusion, some need of being there. There are some that live there that are with it and quite independent, but most are early dementia or full blown. Anyway, this one lady is obsessed with creams of any kind, always using it and whatnot. She’s mostly with it at times and has her own stash of hand lotions and whatever in her dresser. Well, one day she used her rub A535 as a vaginal cream. I shit you not. Needless to say, she’s not allowed to have any type of medicated cream at her bedside anymore! Damn that had to hurt, I thought it was burning my back of the day hubby put some on my back, nevermind down there!~ Just another lovely day at work 😛

Well the results are in:

His biopsy was normal. So no diet for him. I’m relieved, but in the same sense I was grasping at straws here hoping this was the reason for his learning difficulties. Anyway, we’ll survive.

On the TTC front, one more day to go until I can test. I’m due to start tomorrow, although I think it’ll come today. The cramps are kicking in high gear today and the lovely bitchiness is prominent today. Geez, why is it that it happens so easily when you don’t expect it and then when you try, it seems to take forever??

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