I have a question, Why do I always set myself up for disappointment?

I’ll explain. About 2 months ago, a friend of mine who works in pediatrics was talking to her unit manager about how I would be willing to do casual work in ped or NICU. The manager told her how I should definately call her and she’d try and work something out. Well I called, left a message and was somewhat excited about the possibility of working there. Anyway, a few weeks passed by, I never did get a call. I got over it, but it would have been somewhere I’d like to work.

Anyway, about 3 weeks ago, a public health nurse that I know called me telling me how her manager was desparate for casual RNs and told this to them during a meeting. She thought of me and called me and told me to give him a call. I did, left a message and never got a call. What the hell??? I am going to drop off a resume tomorrow. Then I will have done all I can do for that job.

Finally, Monday, I got a call from the unit manager for OBS/LDR. I was shocked to hear from them. It’s the job I have always wanted. Anyway, he tells me, well the lack of experience will probably hold you back from this job. DAMMIT. I was all hyped and now let down. So close, but not close enough. 😦 Like how do you get experience, if you haven’t worked there, but you can’t work there without experience. Never ending circle. Oh well, gotta get over it.